Paper ____

The paper was blank. I stared at it- for five minutes, then ten. Then I looked at the clock. I'd been staring for an hour. And still, the paper remained: blank, pen resting next to it. I could hear the freeway outside, sirens in the distance. Someone across the hall was shouting into the phone.

The story- whenever it came to me, would be good. I just knew it. It was always like this, it seemed.
But when he had broken my heart, I thought for sure this would make my creative piece for class soar.

I was wrong.

The microwave beeped. I walked over, ripping open the bag of tea. Calming, yes. But it wouldn't help me write the amazing, creative story I knew was going bursting at the seams.

Cliche. Horrible language. Writer's block. Bored.

The piece of paper blew in the gentle breeze, settling onto the floor. One last glance was all I needed.

Delicate

Delicate, unfortunate and missing a piece of
paper in my journal where I once kept wishing
you would see and notice that I had cut my hair
for you
that I had worn winged eyeliner, for you
and still you never noticed me--
never looked at me twice
your voice always lingered in my dreams
and Wonderland was only complete when I took the
chance to follow you
but somehow now, this isn't good enough-
my hairspray can is empty
my eyeliner is smearing
and I'm still delicate
but standing on my own two feet.

New Year's Resolution

the list gets longer every year-- will
the year be kind, will it cruel will it be
the moment when my spotlight shines on me
or the moment where my lifeline unravels and
everything falls apart
and nothing is ever what it is again

worries, fear nothing left for me to understand- this year
will be whatever it is meant to be
because there is nothing left for me to believe in.




by Ashley Dodge©